Horrible dream last night.

Tasheystar

I dreamt that I lost the baby last night.

Have you ever made a bubble with gum and then sealed it so that you can hold the bubble in your hand? In my dream I had to pee (which is usually a sign for me to wake up and go), so I went and out came this little bubble with a perfect little baby.

I woke up totally freaked because this is very similar to how I lost my son at 20 weeks in July. I had an infection (from what, they couldn't tell me), was in the hospital, and was having contractions. They told me I wasn't in labour (but I knew that I was, duh), and when I went to go pee, my little Aidan just slipped out.

I know that most of you don't want to hear sad stuff right now, but I've had another m/c since July, so I'm hoping and praying that this baby "sticks". I've been trying so hard not to worry and to stay positive, but I guess in my subconscious I'm still thinking about it a lot (enough to dream about anyway). I told most of my co-workers yesterday too, so maybe that has something to do with it. Anyway, thanks for letting me get that out.