Trying to stay positive...

TLM08

...but as my due date comes closer and closer I have a lot of anxiety.  This delivery will be my third c section.  A VBAC isn't even an option to try.  I know I've done it before, but past experiences don't help me to feel more at ease. To be honest I have no desire at all to have this c section.  I want to stomp my feet and refuse.  I am scared, and disappointed, and I feel incredibly alone.  I just needed to be able to say how badly I don't want this birth plan without judgement.  I just feel like I have no say at all and all of my power has been taken away.  I have a "birth plan" to try to empower me and give me some say about the day's events, but it's not much of a consolation at this point.  I don't know if I'll ever have peace when it comes to this issue.