How do you know when you are ready to let go of getting/staying pregnant and adopt?

ufsandra85

I have infertility problems and multiple miscarriages. My husband and I agreed we will only do 2 more IUI or 1 more miscarriage. I am having a really hard time letting go and accepting I might not be able to have a child that is biologically ours. I have always wanted to adopt, even before I had problems having a baby so I am good with the actual adoption but having a hard time with letting go of the fact I probably wont ever be pregnant and carry a baby. I just keep holding back from adoption because I think maybe a miracle will happen for us. I am also just really scared of adoption. What if no one picks us? What if something happens and I lose a baby I thought was going to be mine? This is just really hard for me. Anyone experience similar feelings? I have had so much heartbreak I am so scared