Scared Appointment

JNL$LSM

The poster (I am not judging feelings are feelings) got me thinking; today we had a normal prenatal appointment. Before the doctor came the nurse checked the baby?s heartbeat, she said she was going to try low because I am still early. She places the Doppler on my stomach and was moving around. First, she could not find the heartbeat, I started to get scared my heart is beating fast and I like oh God no, please let me hear my baby?s heart beat. Finally, after a few minutes she goes do you hear it, it is in the background. The baby moved and sounded a like a roaring train, the best sound in the world.

 

I wanted a little boy, but I do not care, I want a healthy child.  Whatever God blesses me with, I am happy. It is easy to be disappointment at the little things, but at the end of the day we have to let them go and keep on trucking along.

 

Again I am not trying to judge because feelings are feelings, just thankful.