I really want to feel happy & excited about this pregnancy. I kept telling my self...when my first beta comes back stronger then previous pregnancies (that ended in m/c) I'll feel better....It did and I did, for about 30 seconds. Same with 2nd & 3rd betas. Then I said I would be happy once I had my first u /s and everything was "normal". (last pregnancy heard h/b every week for 4 weeks but always measured about a week behind). Doctor said everything looked great. I of course questioned the fact that I was measuring 6 weeks 1 day instead of 6 weeks 3 days. I know the machines are +/- 3 days but that hasn't eased my fear. I am having symptoms this time around. Never had any with previous. So in my head I know everything looks positive. In my head I know it feels better to be happy then constantly terrified. I know a lot of things in my head..but my emotions take over. I just can't seem to let go and start feeling happy. I feel so bad for MH. He is excited but every time he starts to talk about it I always say "IF" not "when". Then I see the hurt in his eyes. Is it time that I see a therapist? Or do I wait until my next u/s (3/4) and hope that I will believe it is going to happen then? Thank you if you made it this far. I don't mean to sound whiny, but I also know you understand where I'm coming from.
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