it was fun while it lasted :

jmb7712

I write this with tears streaming down my face yet again. Cannot believe I'm doing this for a third time. Our ultrasound today 7 weeks and our little bean has lost it's beautiful little heartbeat it had 4 days ago pumping so strong. I don't even know what to say or do. I was praying everyday i would never hear those words "I'm sorry i dont see a heartbeat" again. Going in for a dc next week. They have one last thing to test... Genetics and chromosomal issues on our poor little bean... As our insurance wouldn't cover the karyotyping. Starting to question whether I'll ever have a baby of my own. Beyond devastated and crushed, i don't even know what to do anymore : having no answers and having this happen over and over is just plain excruciating. Wishing you all the best, hope I'll return someday :