seeing specialist tomorrow -- UPDATE

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When we had our a/s last week, we discovered our baby has a problem with her foot.  DH was beside himself with guilt and grief for several days.  He blamed himself.  SS2 had a similiar problem. 

I know that there are so many other horrible problems that can occur and I am trying to be grateful that she is healthy.  SS2 went through painful procedures as a baby to correct his foot and I dread putting LO through this as well.  I am seeing a MFM tomorrow for a more in-depth ultrasound before we go to Children's Hospital for our after-birth plan for LO's foot. 

I'm so sad.  I'm sad for LO.  I'm sad for DH.  I feel LO's strong kicks and it makes me so sad that her foot is growing incorrectly and we can't do anything about it until later.

UPDATE:  MFM office was wonderful.  LO decided to spend the first 45 minutes of the ultrasound holding/playing with her foot.  Once we could see her foot clearly, the issue does not appear severe.  We will set up another consultation with Children's for our after-birth plan.  Based on what the doctor could see today, it may be fixed through less invasive procedures rather than surgery. 

The doctor spent a good deal of time telling us that we should not blame ourselves (especially DH).  He didn't do anything to purposely harm LO or SS2; he served our country and possibly was exposed to something in error 20 yrs ago.  We left feeling a huge amount of relief and can actually celebrate having our own little DD.

Thanks ladies, I was feeling so down last night.  I cried when I sat with the genetics counselor today.  I'm so happy that this chapter is over.

We both walked away feeling so much better.