I have a mentally/
emotionally/ financially (not physically) abusive ex-bf (father to LO) still living with me who does
very little with LO every day unless I am at my breaking point. He has never helped with the bills or contributing any money to support the house since he was to be the stay at home dad after I went back to work. It also doesn't help that I've been unemployed since June of 2012 (right after I broke up with the ex) and I
love having this time with my son but no one wants to hire me because I was
fired from my last job so I'm tainted goods, but that's a side note
right now. BD leaves EVERYTHING up to me to handle:
preparing and feeding LO every meal, diaper changes, play time, bath
time, bedtime routine, etc. So I am already stretched pretty thin after
all of that.
LO is now at the age where he doesn't listen to what Mommy says and even if she explains something over and over again, he still won't listen or comply. I've got plenty of books reassuring me that this is just how the LO's are at this age but it is still very frustrating to say it over and over again and even explain it over and over again so LO understands why Mommy says what Mommy is saying.
In
addition, I never taught LO baby signs so he is trying to communicate
with whining and screeching and screaming at me so I can help him or
play with him or whatever it may be. He still hasn't really said a clear
cut first word that he uses over and over again either though I know when he says Buh at the cat (Bubba) that he is saying Bubba. I have Shaun on a regular feeding/snack schedule so that makes things easier to figure out since that's all taken care of.
So when it comes down to the end of the day, I am out of patience, which I had little of to begin with, and I have no idea what to do to stop myself from getting upset when he constantly whines or doesn't listen to Mommy's requests and explanations.
I'm going to a support group at
the local women's center to help me learn to lessen the abusive
behaviors I learned from the ex, but I feel like I need the counselors
from the support group in the house with me to help me cope or to help
me see what I can do to stop overreacting. I am trying my hardest to
learn to let things go but I don't know how to do that when I'm left in
charge of everything all the time. I am also fearful of when the ex
moves out (which I asked him to do before the end of the year) because I'll then be alone with no help when I need it when I
reach the end of my rope. My mom is an hour away and my sis is 35 min
away with a LO of her own. Most of my friends live 2 plus hours away,
across the country or down in So. Cal so my support group is small but
luckily there is one around.