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purplepeanut6

I am curious if I am the only one feeling this way. 

My first loss was my first pregnancy. When I found out i was KU I was so excited! I would talk to my stomach, think about the weeks to come, talk names with dh, nurseries, cribs, clothes etc. I felt this unspoken bond with my soon to be baby. I was ecstatic.  

When I had my loss, i felt broken. i was devistated. I had grown so attached and now it was gone.

 This pregnancy, I feel like emotionally i cannot get attached. I barely acknowledge its there. I guess i am scared of going through that again. It's like a but an mental and emotion space there so I wont get too attached and heartbroken again. 

I feel a bit cheated that I cant have the joyous excited first trimester that as a first time mom I should be entitled to.   

I am just wondering if I am alone on this.