Vanishing Twin Ladies...

YankeeNavyWife

(This might be long and "rambly", please bear with me) 

I don't know if it's because I'm paranoid, scared or if it's just because I turned 31 years old today (and I feel ancient)... but I'm starting to really panic that my one remaining baby is not still "in" me.

No, to be clear, I have had no bleeding/aches/pains. I've just passed the 13 week mark (I'll hit 14 weeks on Monday), and most of my symptoms have gone away as the books say they should have. I can't say I'm brimming with extra energy, but I'm no longer napping during the day. My boobs no longer ache and burn when I put on a bra. I'm still constipated and cranky and feel "full" but other than that, I feel less pregnant now then ever. It's too early to feel kicking and since I'm a bit "fluffy" around the middle, I have no speakable bump.

Am I worried over nothing? Has IF totally screwed me out of happiness during this whole pregnancy? Am I the only one who has lost one twin without knowing, that worries she'll go to her next OB appointment and find out that the other one has passed too?

My next OB and therapist appointments aren't until Wednesday and I'm tourturing myself looking at the symptoms/side effects of a missed miscarriage.

Any of you ladies feel the same way? How do you cope/deal?

Also, we haven't announced to anyone (not even our parents) that we're expecting. I'm just not comfortable enough to spill the beans because I'm freaked out. I've seen about 5 of my FB friends announce that they're pregnant and they are do weeks after me. I wish I was as confident and happy as they are.