4 1/2 weeks, and I'm already a mess.

CaraLynn91

We just miscarried in September, and were not expecting to be expecting so soon. I don't "feel pregnant" for obvious reasons...I'm only 4 1/2 - 5 weeks. 

I'm just so scared of losing this one. Even though we weren't planning on having another child so soon after losing one, I'm already fighting my excitement. I don't want to jinx it, and I most importantly don't want to let my SO down. I hate the limbo of not knowing. 

Just had to vent. No one knows I'm pregnant, yet. I'm waiting until the 12 week mark, so things are a tiny bit more "guaranteed"... if you can even call it that.

Thanks for letting me spill my guts out!