I'm a wee bit cray cray

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So today is the first day my PT nanny is here (just 10-12 hours a week). I have met with her 3 times before this, have background check, and know she is legit a good person with babies as she works in maternity ward/nursery as a CNA. She just took Emma out for a walk for the first time and I am literally on pins and needles waiting for her to come back!! I keep peeking out the window, waiting to see her with my baby!! I know she is great, but there is still that teensy part of me that is going "what if she is a BSC baby snatcher and is never coming back!?" "Oh thank god, she left her purse and keys...but what if she has another set?" GAH! I am usually SO laid back and not neurotic. I guess I just have to get used to not being the primary caregiver for these few hours!!