It's so strange, but since we've started announcing to our family and friends, I feel like some of my privacy has been taken away. It's a weird feeling and makes no sense, but I just get nervous before telling people. I also get nervous about telling people about the twins. Everyone has been so excited and thrilled, but I get nervous that I am going to tell them about IVF and then all of my health issues which led me there. I don't mind sharing about IVF to most people if they ask, but I've found that then I feel compelled to talk about why and then I realize that this journey is still very fresh in my mind, and while I've only received support, it is hard to re-live it over and over when talking about it. I am amazed by the science of IVF and and so grateful it exists. Yet, the entire process is still hard for me to talk about. And, they usually poke around when I tell them it's twins, so I have to tell them the story. I know some would find this therapeutic but I am not in that stage yet.
And they also poke my belly when I tell them. I don't mind when people I care about touch my belly, but this is odd when acquaintances poke me. I thought this process would feel totally celebratory and it definitely does, but it is still challenging to answer the questions and get poked in the belly.
I know everyone feels differently about this, but how do you deal when your personal journey and body suddenly becomes public knowledge and property?