For you to grieve not being able to give birth vaginally?
DD's birth story:
My water broke, I was given pitocin after 5 hours of waiting for contractions to start. I was given an epi at 5 cm b/c contractions were one on top of the other. 13hours after the pitocin, I was fully dilated. Baby wasn't low enough and after waiting for her to descend and 2 hours of pushing, it was determined she was occiput transverse. My OB said its likely the shape of my pelvis caused this and a VBAC may not be possible. I get so emotional talking about it or even thinking about it. She's so healthy and happy, I shouldn't care how she got here, but it's still hard.
How about you?