Pokey has flown.
There was no heartbeat today at our follow up u/s. The embryo has shrunk down to 5w (I'm 8 weeks today).
Think I'll do a d&c later this week so we can have the tissue tested.
We'll wait for a cycle and then do IVF again.
This is our 3rd loss and it feels unreal, though in a way I was more prepared mentally this time.
We've fallen on the bad side of the odds so many times now.
When I joined The Bump after my first loss, I'd see these women who had 3 losses and wonder how they could keep going on, but now I know. The answer is "hope."
Thanks for all the well wishes today. Thanks for the support and high fives. I hope I'll be back here this year. Goodbye for now.
BzeetyD = 37, Mr. BzeetyD = 43
together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/MFI issues
Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid , more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked,
2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal
Moving on to IVF.
Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2012
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2012
IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy
Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate - hoping to do IVF #4 in March with IMSI, PICSI, CCS testing and, if we're lucky, a FET in May or June.
"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
Everybody is welcome!!!