Have you or anyone you know had an abortion?

unintentionalmom

Due to a birth control failure and a one night stand, I find myself now considering this option. It's something I never thought I would consider, but I've been a single mom for many years and know how hard it is. This child's father resides in a different state and has made it clear that a baby would ruin his life. I'm worried I will regret having an abortion and I know that I won't be able to tell anyone IRL that I've had one. It makes me sick that I'm even considering this, but I feel helpless. 

I am afraid that I'm going to go to hell and will have a terrible time with the aftermath, but I'm beginning to wonder if its what it really best for the child that I have now. Any advice, experience, input woul be greatly appreciated.