I have been EPing since my son was born 9 weeks ago. He was a very sleepy baby and the hospital LC couldn't not get him to latch on and feed without falling asleep. Once home I continued to pump. I never really tried to put him to the breast much, since he continued to be a very sleepy baby, and I was feeling very overwhelmed as a FTM. I LOVE giving my son breast milk, however, I hate pumping! I pump 7-8 times a day (do not wake at night to pump) for at least 25 minutes a session. This is 4 hours a day of just pumping! I feel like pumping is interfering so much with life. I'm constantly stressed always thinking about needing to pump. It is such a pain to go anywhere, because not only do I have to pack everything for the baby, but I have to pack my pump, cooler, supplies, etc. Then I have to time everything with military precision in order to give myself enough time to get from point A to point B before baby is hungry or I have to pump again. I feel like once I do get anywhere I don't really get to thoroughly enjoy myself, because I have to excuse myself to go pump. Because of all of this, I normally just stay at home. I feel bad for not taking my son to see his grandparents more and never doing anything with my husband. I think the biggest thing that bothers me is the fact that I feel like the pumping is interfering with me bonding with my baby. I don't get to hold and snuggle him, or play with him, like I would like, because I'm always tied to my pump. This breaks my heart. I am trying to decide the best way to proceed. Do I stick it out with the pumping, so I can provide my son with the best health benefits? Do I spend $210 to go see the LC and hope she can help me in that one visit? Do I decide to pump till 3 months and then give it up and switch over to formula? I'm just so torn. I feel guilty continuing to pump and I feel guilty thinking about giving my son formula. Anyone who has / is going through this I would love to hear your thoughts. Any advice or suggestions is appreciated. Thanks.