HATE pumping/breastfeeding

greyeyes15

im home with my one week old twins and they dont like feeding from the breast.  i decided to pump exclusively for twins and i absolutely hate it.  my entire life is pump pump pump...i dread looking at the clock knowing my next pumping session is coming up.  i dont even know how I will keep up when i go back to work in 7 weeks.  i cry because i am so miserable doing this but i also cry because if i go to formula i will feel like a failure of a mom.  im so lost...and not enjoying my newborns like i should.

anyone have words of wisdom?