It's official...

cangrick317

I'm scheduled for a c-section on Saturday, April 28th and I am terrified. In my head I know it's the best thing for both the health of my LO and for me but because of my uncontrolled gestational diabetes he will be rushed off to the NICU before I am even able to hold him. 

I'm so scared of not being in control of anything. I'll be strapped down to a table while they take my baby from me and then take him away. Again I know a c-section is for the best because he is also estimated to be over 10 lbs and there is too much risk for complications during a vaginal delivery.  I'm just scared and feeling helpless about it and guilty because if I had been able to control my blood sugar we wouldn't be going through this.