Questions about the future.

JeansKismet

Things are going good in my life right now but sometimes when I'm alone I can't help but think about my lost pregnancy.

A while ago I remember thinking 'Oh yeah, today was the day we had the ultrasound scheduled for, we would know if we are having a boy or girl today.'

 Right now it's 'I'd be half way through my pregnancy right now.' 

And I dread my next birthday in June because my due date is just a couple days after that. We made a lot of jokes about how I was going to be in the hospital giving birth on my birthday. I know I'm going to think 'I could have been holding my baby right now." 

Do those thoughts ever stop?  

And when the hell with they stop sending me baby ads and samples in the mail? It's getting a little old.