I lurk here and know i should get the courage to join you but...

MJN9510

I just havent gotten the strength to end things with DH.  I just want you all to know that reading your posts is helping me.  I hope you all dont think I am offending you for posting here when i am not yet a single mom.  Things are difficult with DH and have gotten worse since DD was born.  DH is very good at manipulating.  When I know I have a very good reason for being upset at him, he always turns it around to the point where I feel like I am apologizing.  He is very good with DD when he is with her, but he always makes me feel bad if I want to go to the grocery store by myself or if I try to clean while DD is awake.  He says I should wait till she is napping or down for the night.  Yet, he is so quick to tell me when something needs cleaned. So when do I get my down time?  I am just so beat down and frustrated and even mad at myself that I still cant seem to put an end to it all and tell him its over.