I need some good vibes today

ReeceFamily

I am a PgAL wreck today in anticipation of my first appointment at 9 a.m. tomorrow. I keep replaying the scene in my mind from my previous pregnancy when the dr looked up from below me and said "oh, I am so sorry".  And then I heard his receptionist say to her colleague in this matter-of-fact voice (referring to me) - "oh, she isn't really pregnant."  That stung - I was pregnant, it had just stopped developing at the mid-6 week mark.  My symptoms continued strongly for another 4 months!

I am in a scared and pessimistic place today and struggling to stay positive. My symptoms are there but really muted (sore boobs only at night, mild food aversion, lots of cramping, pee all the time, gas and bloating), and that scares me.  Being AMA scares me.

Any tips from fellow PgALers?