Today was getting so much better, but now I'm iming my mom and she's talking about my sister's new job (one she decided on after getting 3 offers) and I should be happy for her, but I just can't. I really need a job like that and I've applied at over a hundred schools this year and nothing. I had been applying around here and in Colorado and when I found out about my mom's cancer, I really felt like I didn't get any of those jobs so I could be with her. But when this job in the town I'm moving to came open, I really felt like this was it and it was all falling in place and now I'm just so disappointed I'm not going to get it.