I need some support or guidance today

vahokiegirl

I feel sad for K. Since he doesnt have his father at all in the pic.

When he was born, with all the drama of my ex and what he put me through. I didnt want him to be in the picture at all. Then finding out he was doing drugs still a week after K was born -- it was like a confirmation that not putting him on the BC was a good thing. 

But of apart wishes he was in his life. Sometimes Ive thought about what if I just let him see him ....in a public place. But then that would violate the ppo and I do not want that to happen at all.

And it weird ...because everyday I except to see a summons to court from my EX ....because he has threaten to take K away the minute he was born.  But I havent seen anything yet....and Im kind of surprised. Was that all talk on his behalf?

Does he even care ...that he has a child? And why did he show up at the hospital trying to cause drama if he didnt care...

Ugh ....i dont know what is wrong with me today.