How did this happen?? SERIOUSLY?

jonig1280

Good morning ladies!! Hope everyone "survived" another Valentines Day...I could definitely feel the pregnancy hormones kicking in big time when I cried at the V Day card my mom gave me from my kids...LOL. I NEVER do that! Oh well...here we go. Here's my basics, I am a 30 year old woman with an 8 year old son and 22 month old daughter. I've been a single mom for 6 years now (My sons father was abusive and got out of that relationship after 3 years. My son was just shy of turning 2). My daughter was the "end result" so to speak of a year long relationship with a man that I loved more than anyone else and he broke things off 3 days after I found out I was preggo with her. Well luckily time heals all wounds and even though that was the "hardest" experience of my life I made it through and ended up with a beautiful little girl. Got my life back on track and lost 110 lbs and was FEELING great (most days) and then life gave me another SMACK!

I work full time and have a stable job and make decent money, however I live in the FL Keys and being a single income home I STRUGGLE!! However even though I I am a single parent with 2 kids I don't qualify for ANY ASSISTANCE!! Sooo frustrating So December came, turned 30 and was feeling pretty "blue" because of my life was not exactly where I expected it to be and found a "temporary" relief in the arms of a guy I had met online and had spoken to for awhile. AFter that we didn't talk much and I basically tried to forget about him UNTIL 3 weeks ago when I found out I was PREGNANT AGAIN!!

Thought about the abortion route, but couldn't go thru with it. Told the "father" about the baby and he has disappeared (which I actually don't mind so much because I dont want to share my baby with strangers). Now I'm spending most days either sick as a dog or feeling like my world is going to crash around me How did I get myself into this???

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