Ugh.

MSUMamaof2

I started cramping and bleeding at about noon today and I'm pretty sure I'm losing our baby.  I've had a previous miscarriage.  While I'm not bleeding as heavy or cramping as hard as I did during that experience, I can't help but feel like my chances for a good outcome here are not so good.  I called my OB and he agreed to let me ride it out at home as long as I wasn't hemorrhaging, running a fever, spiking BP, or having horrible cramping--and I have to be checked out first thing Monday morning.  

My husband and I weren't trying for a third baby.  I was in the process of scheduling a bariatric surgery.  I had to wrap my head around the idea of being pregnant, and now, I don't want to wrap my head around the idea of anything else.  The emotions that come with losing a pregnancy are so vast.  I was really hoping I never had to experience this again.