Scared to take test #2

jlkrebs

So, DH and I have been married nearly 2 years now. We decided to wait a bit before TTC but I was having issues with my pill back in November, so I switched to a different script. Well about a month later AF is nowhere to be seen. I take a HPT at work on my lunch and I get a BFP. Later that night, before telling DH about our surprise, I get a negative. Then over the next 1-2 weeks 4 more tests all negative. I use the Digital EPT and/or Clear Blue ? I don?t want to misread it! And I hear that these are some of the most accurate tests. So after some research I have realized it was probably a "Chemical Pregnancy" where implantation did not fully occur? Now DH and I have been TTC for 1-2 months and I don?t expect it to happen first time? BUT I am on day 38 ? last cycle was 35 days ? so regardless I am possibly late ? so I took a HPT on Friday night and got a Negative. Then still no AF so this morning ? and I got a BFP!!! WOO HOO!!! BUT? I am so scared to take the second test ? I am so worried it will be like it was six months ago and my happy bubble will pop and I will go thru the whole grieving process for something that was never anything to begin with? Any one else feeling me here?