Why do I do this to myself?!

MegannJay

I swear, I look forward to my doctors appts so I can hear the baby's heartbeat and know that everything is ok.  However the week leading up to it I freak myself out and this week its over the most ridiculous thing ever!

So I'm not complaining at all (and know that I'll gain weight later) but I think I've gained a total of 4lbs total this pregnancy.  I had gained a bunch of weight while ttc so it's not a bad thing but I have this irrational thought that something is wrong with the baby and it's not/or has stopped growing.  The other thing is that I really haven't seen much change in my belly over the past couple of weeks.  I took a belly shot yesterday (@16wks) and compared it to my 14wk belly shot and they look identical.  So that only fuels my ridiculous fears.  UGH... I know everything is fine but I can't understand why I do this to myself.  I really should have gotten a doppler, definitely getting it for kid #2!  Only 6 days until my next appt! (Thank goodness!)